back from camp ((: camp focus-zibulu grp, A2 rawkkks. from the man power of 12 which is reduced to 7 by the second day. fun, fun, fun! love it esp on the last day. where we all spent the whole day in the pool. it's all mostly water games. triathlon was aft lunch. n yupp, swam for my team for 100m... nxt rock jump then 4 x 400[not sure]. grp came in 4th. with manpower of 7 no one to cheer on.. it's kinda pushing oneself to the limit. yea babeh. facilitator rawks! daryl kor rawks too. he's swt la huhs. wrote me this note in my 'letter box' kinda flooded his too. it was him that gave me the motivation n encouragement to swim n give it my best shot. endurance that's what my brudder said to me. his words jus sank in. before that morality was low n all grp members were shagged. she* wasnt exactly encouraging us.
first day of camp there's some bombing thingy.. i kinda aimed at the wrong place at hit someplace that i felt reallllly bad hitting 'it' with the bomb. accident.. damnshits. totally embarrassed. felt was down aft. dont know whys. but yesh i felt bad. daryl tried to hit me wit the bomb.. he's nice enuff not to anws. but jo hit me with it.. like the first person she aimed was me. wth! at the end of it all was fun. on the way to traing on mon, went to find ben kor n brudder mike at the mini gym room. thou i was with him the whole day the day before but just miss him so. hugged him.. when i totally stink like shits. and there's this guy in another grp tt really sounds like mike. for brudder daryl, thou he's in the same camp, i feel good seeing him everytime when we pass by each other or when that neh disturbs me. seeing him from far, he's enjoying himself. and of cos *him*, hahas. been walking arnd. ohhhh..infatuation yeaas.
aiights gnna study in sch tmr, meet su to swim. just hope her talk or whteva ends early. the brudders are having their camp tmr! wish to see them arnd. yepps. off i go ta eat n bathe. hvnt bath for the whole day. =x peace out.

what a day it's gnna be ltr? no ideas. my index finger was slammed by my drawer. cup of drink mom left on the table was spilled all over the table by me, jus accidentally elbowed it. not once but twice. urrgs. what's wrong?!?! clothes aint dry yet. dad cldnt give me the money to pay piano t-cher for the studio fee. gotta pay it first. dont even know how do i go to kovan from sch. which is very inconvenient. oooo, all driving my nuts. mmms, gues brudder ben's chillin wit his brudders. kinda missed him. thou i was wit him the whole day. dint kiss him goodbye jus now. sorrie. [u were too far away]. consideration of del's party. shld i or shld i not go? pouts. off i go anyhos. gnna go for camp.. a lil excited, m not quite either. whatever, i'm crapping. need my beauty sleepp.. really need it. toodles
mind was at ease.
wasnt thinking about anything
sometimes being alone cld be so good.
breathing in the fresh air...
somethings are just for my eyes to see
i rather not know him

tis is for my brudder ben. (: loveee u.

feeling damn tired today. contact lenses was "running" arnd my left eyeball. urggs.
went to watch kor kor and the other db guys row. dont recognise them till they started counting. (: practically stoning.. and took some pics. weather was so humid n all. kinda roasted there. got a lil tanner. went beach rd for dinner aft. the coconut's so swttt! *slurps* went down to meet brudder mike. and he's got the snaps tt i brought for bro. but mike's is black in colour. brudder daryl, joined us aft.. looking at tt face of him when he get really 'shot' is shiokedolic. went home aft, everyone was pretty shagged n tired. for burdder daryl, he went to sch. i'm jus tired n stickyyy. ewww. waking up at 8am on a sunday. now, cosily back home. mopped the floor, did my laundry.. heating up the left over pizza for my dinner. i've yet to pack for camp. shall do that later. victoria secret's up tonight at 10pm. it's a must catch.
heard lotsa thingys today which totally polluted my mind! ohmygawd goodness gracious me. my my my...partially disgusted however i enjoy laughin bout it. contradicting. but well, i like lehs(: -personal joke-
later.

tanning at sentosa. i'm loving it

ching and i on way back to habourfront

brudder n gurlfriend

chia su and i at beanniee (: *my dearie gurlfriend*

ediotic brudder and i.

happy belated 14th birthday august'! (:

it's younger bro's birthday ytsd. wanted to get some boxers for him n since he got it himself. got a rip curl snaps for him. a sexy pretteh body print on it. ;] got the money from dad thou. i'm broke la huhs.
woke up kinda just in time to get outta hse. ez-link left with 40cents. so took a bus down to habourfront to meet ching. walked to dad's office from there to get some money from him. and i'm late for 1/2hr. -sorrie ching- yeahs. at last i went for tanning like at sentosa. it was shiokelicious. the sun wasnt really scorching hot. comparin to the main island sun. it seems a lil diff at sentosa itself. gees. talked bout lotsa stuff n also bitch bout t-chers n stuff. ooooh! i'm loving it. no longer as fair *grins* but my swim-tan's stil stays on. pouts.
supposedly to go for sch's musical. there was a last min change of plan to meet brudder john for dinner. musical's off. = called up marshul if he stil wants the tix. n yups, came back hm to get the tix n change.. cabbed down to yck. thank god i wasnt late. yeaa, there goes my chance to watch the musical n rueben playin the piano. it's like he's so macho n big. n cld be so soft... know some pple who are like that. not easy to come cross guys like these this days. back to the pt, gave marshul e tix. was alry late meetin the guys. they were rottin n all. -sorrrie- we dined at piazza! mmms, the service there was kinda bad. su n cp were so pissed. cant stand it. n some neh neh took the feedback form n wrote all bout it. *faints* how irritating can she ever get.
off we went for some shopping! got my bro's snaps, and went to taka to get su's bra. my gawdd the bras are so cheap!.. considering to buy it. nono, shldnt spend money unnecessarily yea.
cp went off aft, she's far too tired. doin opening ltr. -shakes head.
su, john n i went over to coffee bean to chill. we were gettin so cranky and stuff. the lameness starts to level up. talked bout lots of stuff. at one point john cant stand us.
absence really does make one's heart fonder. the last time i saw brudder john was god knows how many months ago. i really miss him lots. dont regret giving up the musical for him.
corn' has got his bdae party ytsd. met up with girlfrens n john instead. it's either i go for corn' party or del's party nxt week. parents been naggin quite alot. the more often tt i go out. the more i spend. very true. brudder ben called me, telling me bout wht time to meet them later. and they're drinking n stuff. thank god i wasnt there. hahs. yups, meetin brudder at 8.45am later. damnns. tt's early weekend for me. i'd be at the bridge watchin them row. or yea wld chill somewhere and read.
da camp's tmr! hope it'd be sth nice. not some boot camp thingy or whats. *he'd be there for two days.. while waitin for traing on fri *he came by the pool. earlier in the day saw him in the gym. -overjoyed- yep! laundry to wash and all..
gnna take my beauty sleep!
hvnt hrd from him for quite some time.
msged him.
no reply.
makes me wonder if he's busy or what.
if he's alright.
ponders
later.

singapore idol

Andy Joshua Lim has got the boyish look. calvin that fashion designer's so off. turned off. 3 i choose in this grp wld be David Yeo-open arms, Olinda cho-sway and Jeassea thyidor-chain of fools. very strong vocals. and they cld connect. 2 jazzie singers this round. opens ur arms n sway with me, u chain of fools.
-tay ph's on ch8. *grinssss* awaitin for camp.

dint go for pd lesson this morning. am just too lazy to get out of bed. aiights excuses. find it as a totaly waste of time. doin creativity stuff?! =s presenting it or whteva. anyhos, studied math till 4am. and he only gave us 15mins. managed to solve only a ques. it consist only 1 mark of our common test or what. and those who went wld get the mark. the eye rings are gettin darker.. = dint go for steven's lab work. some manual drawin work. he said he aint gnna collect the work for those that dint turn up with no valid reason. like whteva. just gonna do it and hand it up. dont want then jus give it back to me and it goes in the bin. some lamo lect.
during that 2 hrs was suppose to meet brud daryl but he seemed so bzy arnd. leaving ben kor kor and i at macs. but josephine was there. great time talkin to them. finding out more bout db. from the start of sch had always wanted to join db. hated the running. shall see how i'd prolly give it a try soon. moreover i'm not in swimming in ivp. yups stil i'd train hard. josephine's so roundie n nice.. she kinda rawks. opps. =x like it when she say "that's it!" she's goin camp focus too. anyhos, brud daryl came back n went off. fool. went off for piano. was at the void-deck studyin. awaitin for dinner and SI! then it'd be back to my notes. and SI agn.
gotta be in sch at 9 tmr whereas most of my classmates are at 2pm. cos i dint turn up last week. from 10+/11 -2 i'm free! gnna head down to the gym. aft sch, wld head down to the pool for a dip n train. fish there's circuit traing tmr!.. hope we're nt doin sit-ups. cos *it still hurts.

-melted by n & j...

it's a sin

music playin'azn dreamers-fixing a broken heart

26aug-
first of all, i've got more than 6hrs of slp! first time ever. it was sucha nice weather anyhos. it started raining cats and dogs when i was on my way to sch. when it was 11.06am the lect hall was stil pretty empty. am able to absorbed wht mr yap was revising. however, for superposition theorem i'm still pretty blur at it. pretty much of revising for the whole day of tutorial and tt particular lecture.
i was pissing the hell outta brud ben. to the stage that he doesnt wanna open up his mouth. it's a torture to me aiights. there he was humming some nursery rhyme. and that look that he gave jus irritates me n torture the hella of me. stood aside outside the lect theatre waitin for some talk. he came to me.. and he talked. aft he questioned himself why is he talkin to me. my brud simply cant resist it yesh. *huggs* mich called me sayin there's camp focus briefing so i had to go over n not go for tt impt talk! marked my attendance n went off. *fish some pple that tryin to give prob to my brud. like wth! -roll eyes- rushed over to blk E. there i was in a room full of pple. managed to spot both michelles, brud daryl, ivan n n n *him!! he's kinda in charge of camp focus and all. i'm melting hehs. gotta meet early at 8am in sch on mon. gees. but i've gotta go off in the morning to the studio for piano, ltr in the evenin for swimming traing. yesh. swimming traing. (: aft camp's meetin there was swimming. and it dragged for 2-3 hrs. michelle chng was pissed n went off. no comments. why are we so solemned and all. cld everyone be more active? i'm seeing the db pple be it the guys are gals are having so much fun. why cant swimming team be? the only time we spent is durin traing n tt's all we get? somethings were cleared during meeting. ended like 6.30pm!
cp n suli were waitin for me since 4++ for cp it was since 12pm. i'm so sorries babehs! there we went off to 284 for e yummilicious spring chicken. it was heaven! but i dint finish it. i'm tryin to watch my appetite. ate macs for lunch n spring chicken for dinner. that's quite alot*sinful*. su shared sth with us which is so.... OMG. went ova to su's place to study. and cp pratically slacked at su's place. had hella great laughters n fun with my two babehs! jus missing some neh neh gloria siew yu lin. i've got tix to the musical in sch this sat. su n cp are goin. glo's considerin cos her friend's askin her too. so yupps. i've got xtra!! (: and this sat wld be tanning with ching and mayb su? tt girl. prays hard for the weather. *crosses fingers*
sometimes i would wanna bring myself to go to a church or whats. that would means commitment to God. but i question myself for that, would i be able too? there's so much things i'd like to seek help n from him. there's this strong urge to jus go down to the methodist church downstairs n listen to the sermons n all. to forgive. to love. to learn. everything. a peace of mind it would be. i will, one day.
i'm havin my math quiz ltr.. i hvnt studied for it. proj to do.. which i know nothing of?.. it's done and i only knew it like ytsd. pcq quiz on friday. urgggs.
i want to be back in sch and be with my dearest brudders and darl babehs. stil, i've gotta face the reality. back to studies, gnna hit my books. toodles.
-i've got so much to nag bout my day. i'm crappy. -result of late nights

brudders: gonna see y'all in sch ltr. stil i'm missing u guys. things are a lil diff. hopefully things wld be better. (: i loveee u guys soooo soooo much.
babehs: the 2 poo-poos. we'd catch up on sat!! cant wait!! bzy shittin n cleanin poo yays. dread sch.. wanna see u guys. chil at one's place n bitch, crap n luff.
gloria neh babeh: u better go for the musical. whether ure takin the tix from me anots. i'm missing the ever energetic darling.

i've hrd bout something stuff which isnt pleasant. and it shldnt be happening or whats? i'm sorry to say but *you are sucha jerk. whether ure reading this anots. have i ever come across your mind. or maybe there's too many girls that u'd even forget ur sista? do u even consider me as ur sista?.. only when uve got probs n need this n that.. need to knoe more girls? but f* u. all the things i hrd. a leopard wld nv change its spots i suppose. things that uve done once, u'd do it agn. well, it's proven aint it?! distaning away. pray hard nothing more happens. pple arnd are hurting. if u dont see it. she's so much happier without you. anyone cld see that. she's cldnt breathe with you arnd. there's so much sorrows. i'm happy for her. if one day you wld be played by someone. grow up.confession.reflect.period

interview was cancelled. they've got some last minute meeting thingy or whats. urgggs. was looking fwd to it. spoils my day. -pouts.
met mike on the bus today. so happen that i feel like takin 159 to sch today. thou i was late. tt guy just confused what he was saying and made me blur. christina and meng boon came on the bus too. seen her arnd in sch. only till today i said hi to her. and derrick was at the bridge smoking. i almost tripped while making my way to say hi to him, there's this guy sitting down smoking at the stairs. what cld be worse?
daryl's becoming my rubbish dump. ate ban mian today and i jus finish the whole darn bowl. so he ended up eating half of what i've finished. for once i seen him dressed up. nt tt slackish. so was i. -grins- ben was so full. i'm alwys irritating these days. blehs. hope he'd jus give me some tips that vivian gave him for the pcq quiz. cos he refuses to. urgggs. dr lim gave us hinted hints for the common test. he cld be so nice at times.
i've gotta study for the pcq quizzie and copy the whole stack of notes for dig. fundamentals from my friend. do some self-studying at my block's void-deck after dinner. for now shall take a bath and rest.
-sch starts at 11 tmr. meeting cp n su in the evening. woooohooos. cant wait for tmr to come. lalala. wld be seeing my brudders and gfs [-glo] =\. still i'm blessed. thank god for that.

it's no longer the same
the atmosphere's cold

class dinner on friday. class rep asking me to skip traing. cant really afford skipping. when i was illed i dint go for 2 traings and was stamina was down n all. wld go aft or whts. yummie seoul garden. -slurps.
ahhh! it's time to study. study study. havent much started on any. i'm working a lil of my math thou. cant afford to fail others. so yesh, study. durin e-learnin durin yap's lessons ytsd, i somehow enjoyed it. well, when u learn something new and it really goes into one's mind and ure able to work the sums. u'd feel proud of urself. and yes, i do. -smiles-
traing ytsd was a lil crazy shits. swim n swim n swim. well what's new? swimming traing. that means swim and swim and..swim. andy worked on our strokes. i've still gotta say my freestyle stroke isnt quite there yet. i know it. yups but i'm working on it. debrief and stuff aft. there'd be no traing this weds! *wheees* there's still a meetin at 5pm. -pouts. from 3-5 i'd prolly train myself. stamina's still bad. endurance's bad. [shall see if cp n su's free.. meet em aft for some dinner? that's only if they're free. are u girls missing 284 chiiicken?!] anyhos, andy's gettin serious durin trainings. it's all individual. gotta know the no. of laps i swim myself, concentrate on strokes and breathing. yups. aft traing, waited for my 3 brudders to swim. while waiting got marshul n jy to correct my strokes for freestyle. `work it. my dear burds came into the pool at 8.29pm when the pool closes at 8.30pm. how smart! aft their self-traing. a lil dippin wld help. daryl cld plunge for the board. i'm amazed. but smacked his face. shant luff cos i smack down on my thighs. it hurt loaddies. =x went for dinner aft. stil the auntie gives an attitude. so unwillingly to serve. *roll eyes* they filled me in wit lotsa stuff. bid goodbye with hugs n kisses. they arent my real brothers, but it's as if they are. *when u lost ur trust to someone else. it's never easy to gain back the trust from that person.* reminder to ownself.
aiights, cp's free on weds. shall see if su is! *crosses fingers*
ohhh yea! going for some interview at yamaha tmr. hope i'd get it. since it's only once a week. =s
wld be studyin at the void-deck ltr in the night.. no distraction. -u train hard, work on it. save all the excuses of being tired. they're all nonscence. focus.
am missing my GFs. -pouts. silly head glo's havin headache n tiredness grows inside her.
su's happily bitching in the hosp n wipin pple's poo with tt china girl. NO! -inside joke-
cp's bzy wit her proj.. and me? traings n sch. ohhh damnss
i'm learning as i overlook at other problems. grow older and learn. darn, my entry's long. so much of crappy stuff. pretty much things are the things i want myself to take note of. yups.
off to watch teeevee. ja.

Never in my 17+ yrs that I sat down to watch the national day rally. Today i did. No idea what has gone into me. Probably, it's time to know what's going on with the politics issues or whatever. Was pretty much inspired by the rally that PM Lee HS gave. Thou i only caught hr plus of it. Nanyang poly was mentioned, producing demandin people. At that moment, sth jus struck me n felt so motivated. aiights wht rubbish. But yupps, PM Lee had made a couple of changes to the law. It'd only be 5 working days for civil servant. Nothing more. There's a need to spend quality time with their family. Foreign levy for households with children below 12 wld be lower, and also with grandparents. Maternity leaves is extended to 12 weeks. Parents have 2 childcare leaves per year. It had always been a no-no for PM for the 5 working days. Now, he decided it's time for a change. If someone were to ask you, what's your nationality. What would you say? I'd say I'm a Singaporean. It sets me thinking if there's anyone out there that would say they're Singaporean-chinese, Singaporean-malay n Singaporean-indian? Cos i've never heard of any, or meet any who said that. I'm proud to be a Singaporean. -Sudden sense of patriotism

speechless.thoughtless.tired.
it sets me thinking.
which makes me ponder, toned down.
i'm happy. and now?
i'm not.
-cries

gf and i at fcuk. am so in love with tt top!!! *screams*

ohhh i'm missing the girls badly. cant we jus have some time for ourselves? it's been 2 weeks tt i've seen gloria. and 6 daes not seein chia su. cp.. dint even get to see her these week. we're all so busy with our sch n work. and thank god m meetin su n cp tmr for a movie-the notebook. wheee. feelin euphoric. lalalas.
anyhos, i dint go for first lesson of the day. n damns i've have to go nxt week. most of then had finished the lab work. well there's some that hvnt finish. gees, so i've got some accompany. havin pcq quiz nxt week. tt nicee lect gave us all the points to study n 2 full structured ques to work it out mans. isnt he nice? awwww.
period jus started, pms n all. quite a no. of thing tt pisses me off. some pple in the class. emotional at some stuff too. pouts. fcukit. while waitin for traing to start *he walked past. n i dint realise til ben told me. hehs.. day jus brightened up outta sudden. -melts away- *blehs
andy dint come to coach once agn. fridays. took our own lanes n stuff. the guys are like so omg! hello.. pinchin each others nips? i mean okaee finee.. do u need to relate swimming butterfly to havin sex?! *roll eyes* thank god yee yan joined me ltr all else i'm the only girl in the lane agn. some guys jus love swimming slant n brush across us. it's no big deal some might think. we're sensitive. there's some issues goin on. sighss. whteva. i'm goin for camp focus under swimming. some leadership camp in sch. woots. mich wld be in charge. n daryl's the darn friggin facilitator. *damnit* anws, spent way long time in the bathroom. wait for my brothers to finish their bath n went ta makan with the db pple. was walkin n chattin wit daphane and ginny. they're such nice pple!... db girls are so much more fun n loud. laughters n all. well swimming there's lots too. me! gees. we need ta bond pple! ooooh. fuck the guys. yeshh i had my sambal fried rice.. they went talkin bout si n luffed all bout it. someone sang the darn 'lemon tree'. damnns. n i find jo from db like.. she's the bomb babeh! darn big n she's power. (: db girls are so so farnie. of cos with the company of my bruds it's da best. weather was chilly n ben gave me some warmth. really look up to him as a brud. one tt disturbs, one tt listens.
saturdae's comin.. cant wait. need more slp n out of home once agn. to spend some quality time with friends. C:

feeling very tired easily these daes. well at least i'm gettin more hours of sleep this week. i've gotta slp early anyhos. e pimples are back agn. once agn, controlling my intake n my beauty slp. *fcukit* i hateee it. it's nv goin away. gets better, period of the month it's here agn. uh-huhs. tt somehow strikes me.. my period's coming soon. tt's prolly the reason.
mmms, was with ben most of the time. meetin the brudders at fj. daryl cut his hair. he looks baldie shits. saw this guy who's quite gd lookin in fj, but skinny. n my brudders noes the gurl beside him -_- guys. aft lect went back to fj to look for jessica. and meet mike's friend there. guess who i saw. tt guy who looks like derek? well now, think he's more handsome. from sw. glo wld noe who am i talkin bout. yups. n mike's friend is from sw too. they were sittin tgt. i only grinned when i saw him.. n my dear bro asked ginny for his no. *roll eyes* how embarrassing, so while they were talkin i was hidin myself behind ben n del's back. my..-mesmerized. wht a great dae.
gnna call up this place to book the recital room that i'm havin my exam at, to play n practise on the piano. darn, i'm tensed up. aural's gettin better, sight-readin's a lil better which is good. still gnna drill more. pouttties SI's on at 8 baby! aft shall see if i wanna laze to watch the ch8 show. n yupps shall hit the books aft. a few more weeks to go, and it always seems that i'm nt getting nowhere.

dreaming faraway
in the reality world it's totally different
let me continue dreaming in my world..
feeling over the moon

*he's always on my mind.

music playin' chingy-right thurr

love the rhythm of 'right thurr' the mtv's way sexeh. darn uncensored! *covers eyes*
am waitin for time to pass till 12.30am swimming 200m finals . woohoos. n boy ian thrope formed a WR for his freestyle. nice one. he's so friendly n humble. ooo.. at one of the event he's a few secs behind michael phelps. pouts. ian thorpe..
slept for arnd 10mins durin tan.cb's lect. everyone was talkin. was tryin to listen up thou. dint understand n all.. was sittin kinda far right. so jus slept. ben n del came in n woke me up by pushin my head done, which gave me a shock. maths was nuttie as usual. planned to come home n study. but cant seem to study at home where there's sth like bed, tv, lappie, music. gees. till nw i've yet to open up my books. shall jus slp ltr.. watched the comp till 3 this morning. blehs. whteva.. ohh yesh was on the bus with nikkie todae. dint notice her till she called me. sorrie girl! she's got tonnes of ica n stuff. poor girllie. oooo i miss my 2 missys! lalala. traing tmr, jus makes me wonder wht we're gnna do. plungin..? no ideas. ran outta things to sae. toodles peepos

music playin'| five for fighting-superman

ytsd-[15aug]
prev entry was in the whee hours. stil the usual me, least hrs of slp is 6hrs. woke up n headed to yx's place. was arnd 2 then, had my lunch there. awaitin for watch i, robot. n my brudders called me down to town. as i promised em to go the dae b4. in the end dint catch i,robot but a lil of endin of double happiness last epid.
meet den n del to get my jeans. went to far east to see den's ciggy case. n jamie teo, vincent ng n michelle chong were filmin at the cafe/buffet at this hotel-nxt to breadtalk. tt area was jammed up. the pathway's narrow enuff. film somewhere else pls. but vincent ng is whoaas. macho baby. jus a lil too fair. anyhos, yesh went far east in search of case n my belt. saw some interestin books. thank god i've resisted the temptation to get it. went ta mcafe to chil. town has got many pretty girls but the guys are so pathetic..so cant help it. looked at the girls (: wht ta do. planned to go for a haircut. e salon tt i alwys go has a branch at yishun. meetin the guys to do the drawin tgt so went to the yishun's branch. i've got this short fringey!.. but yesh, kinda similar hairstyle as i'm keepin my length. jus volumed it up. while i'm havin my haircut. the guys are supposed to be home restin n slpin as they're so darn tired. aft an hr they've yet to slp..went to a macs nearby to do some self-study. met den n went to del's viod-deck. surprisingly daryl was there. manns, he was so red-tanned. tt reminds me tt i need a damn fuckin tann!!! *in my swimsuit la hurrs. ohhhh..!* had our diner n headed to study corner to do our drawin while daryl went back home cos he's gt nth to do n was so tired. time passes so fast when ure concentratin on sth. went off arnd 11. i've yet to finish up my drawing. left those damn arrows to draw. it's gtta be 'pointed' *roll eyes*
anyhos, gnna take a bath n read thru notes for my lab work ltr. some sorta test for measurement of resistance, current, voltage. wld be crossin my fingers tt i wont get messed up. 13 sept's nearing...feelin scared n nervous. there's so much that i need to do. it's time to get down to plan a damn timetable n get organised for hell sake. tt includes takin care of my dog. ever since the start of sch i've neglected him. thought of givin him or sellin him away are in all of my family members mind. but i jus cant seem to be apart from him. it's time to do sth bout all these. sch, traings, piano, doggie, social time,.. work? i'm too spoilt. piece of stupid spoilt-brat. fcukit. hafta get some control of myself anws. my darling's gnna stay wit me. he will.
u dont have to ask, and u wld know tt there's sth wrong. one cld sense it. esp when ure very close. u jus noe it aint right. if there's a wil, there's a way.

music playin'| babyface & usher- bedtime

am jus done uploadin the pics. imagestation album-outside, no.262 onwards & *nypp album's added.


-14aug
meet up wit su. whom was suppose to do retail therapy. ended up i bought more stuff than she did. swimsuit, shoebag, levi's jeans altered [all checked] bought some pens. (like in sec sch daes searchin n shop for pens) wenta heeren to get her shoes done. so excited to see the outcome of it. da choo-choo-train. went to search for brud's diamond stud. cant decide, called del. n he came ova wit mike another friend of theirs n this girl whom i believe is jessica. chose a stud tt isnt too small nor big. n tt nigga likes it. aft went ta ondo to eat, n yesh agnn. dint really eat lots. but su claimed tt we did. well, only felt bloated aft eattin. hees. n i can nv get nuff of sushi ondo. waited for cp to end work. n went to esplanade aft. walked down to marina pomnade(whteva it's called) sat down by e rocks thang n chatted, took piccs. treasured the time spent, things shared. first time eva tt i kissed a girl like more than once! manns. went off arnd 12. back home an hr ltr. *damnit*
wanted to meet e guys aft their traing. am pretty much lazy to go town and also goin town wld means spendin money. collect my jeans nxt week yeaas. shall sit down study ltr.. gonna watch i,robot! prolly avp or whts? see how's yx dl. tt guy's stil awake chattin wit me.
cp's takin up this savings plan which i think is good. force oneself to save up some money n left untouch. which is sth gd. it'd b left untouch. considerin bout it. gnna ask mom if her insurance agent for mine has got this sorta plan. so i'd save up..which i nv do. aiights outta here. i need to catch some slp first.

yx: thanxx for the music! geees. (x shall see ya ltr!
su: shall do some shoppin agn. hahas. this time we'd find wht u want aiights. a diff destination too (:
*scream: gnna catch The Notebook... soon. later.

music playin'| luther vandross-i'd rather

i needtaaaa slp! aint pushin myself to swim todae. hv yet recover from flu, diffculties breathing. stamina's goin down, lazee. plunge like a friggin' frog. i was seriously catchin my breath every lap. yawnns. andy asked us to get another swimsuit for traing. we're suppose to wear like 2 swim suits! fcuk. and we're runnin on mon!? damnit. the db girls came ova ta roll. but they were asked to go to the medium pool. hrd from ben tt almost half the no of pple tt joined had quit. wht ta do db traing's quite siong too. the guys were doin weight-lifting! my gawdd. was real glad tt del's mood was perked up.
mmms, anyhos, proj due todae wasnt even handed up. but yeah the brainstormin n all was done. quite enthu to do the proj thou. some bicycle umbrelli!
coussie called todae, tellin me she's xtendin her line. so i cld get a phone at a cheaper price! gawdd i looove her. am awaitin for end of mth ta get t610. noe it's kinda laggy. but yeaa t630's too ex. it's betta than none.
yups am meetin su n cp tmrs. retail therapy?! not much for me.. parents are constantly remindin me bout thrifty cos i've been spendin lots. *nods head* so yesh, shall be thrifty n those things are jus for my eyes. am plannin to jog in the morning. destination wld be su's place ((: gnna wake tt girl up! aiights gnna rest for todae n readdd my book. ohh yesh did i mention i found wally lamb's book in sch lib? n yeaa i managed to get e book w/o payin. -wide grins- gnna enjoy readin it.. toodles peepos.
this love has taken it's toll...

music playin'| michael buble-till then

ohh man i'm so jazzed up now. all thanx to dan. he's got a sexehh voice for the song 'the way you look tonight'. nth much. dint even wanna blog. doin sth stooopid wit dan, like who'd blog faster? ooooh yesh got my practical exam date. 13 sept which is like a mth away from todae. i'm not prepared for it. urggs. nv prepared. i cant sight-read for nuts. i need more rest!! weekends gnna chill n study. gnna town wit su n cp. wld be in search for earrings for myself n stud for mua brudder' den. tt fool's too bzy. and sun wld prolly drop by yx's place to watch i,robot n maybe AVP? cools. and gnna study aft tt. since he's doin derivatives too (: when u get the hang of it.. u'd love doin it. tgif! week 6 coming to an end, it's time to start study. almost a mth away..clashes wit my exam date. but when i check the calender it doesnt. no ideas. gotta check it out tmr. yawnns, dan's !!w.o.l.s.

su! cheer up.. i'l sing for ya here aiight'
spider-man spider-man~! he spins a web at any side.. lalala.
mmmmmmuacks.

music playin'| ja rule feat. ashanti- alwys on time

am still up. been sleeping late these days. one thing is, it isn't healthy at all. *pouts. never mind about it. i've just finished doing 3 connections for the dingdong bell and i'm stuck somewhere cos me myself isnt very sure if the wires could overlap at a point. shall ask my classmate tomorrow. jus hope i could stay awake during pcq lect. everyone would be nodding off. jus hope some coffee in later would help. or tea, whteva that might help!
had dinner at swensens. finally diana's back (: she look so pwetty wit tt hair of hers. but well if someone's gonna do that in school, they'd probably get a warning letter i guess. ohh chicken baked rice is how yummilicious. sth to take over cartel's baked macaroni, it's cheaper anyhos. so why not!? shopped arnd for a lil while n diana got hungry like darn fast! to think that she ate quite alot. opps. yupps. went over to su's place to watch SI. da banana man's sucha loser. coming back with the same shirt..hello!~ and tt malay guy who sang solitaire is a damn good one, tt girl who sang cant take my eyes off you which actually woke douglas up tt was gd. n this mixed parentage girl. thumbs up for em. two thumbs up for the two impaired contestants. the courage showen by them, even with their disability they'd dare to stand in front of the judges n sing. comments tt the judges given was great (: cant wait for the future episodes of SI. The OC ltr-idiot oliver. yikes! anyhos, gnna turn in.. to get my 2hr 45mins slp. laters.

music playin'|craig david- you dont miss your water



oooooh i'm feelin drowsy n slpy.
troubled troubled. it totally suck to see ur close friend feelin so hurt n all. esp when it's due to relationship probs. it feel shits deep down inside tt person yet all i cld do is to console. gnna do sth bout it anyhos. hope it'd help...i'm sorrie ta sae but she's sucha bitch. zipped. meetin da princess yana tmr for dinner. cant wait!! jes realised how packed my dae is filled everydae. the only day i'm free durin sch dae wld only be a tues. =\ hvnt been practicing piano much n i'm havin my lesson on thurs. wld have to prac ltr in the morning i guess.. sch's a 11am! woots still i dont even feel like attending -.- glad tt gloria's enjoyin her attchment. eye opener for her. [glo: from wht i hear from you, you can make it as a missy aights. dunch u eva think tt u cant make it or whteva.. cos u can do it. i'd appoint u as my personal nurse in future]. am gnna see all my darlings tmr. thou it's all diff time. cp for a swim n su n glo for dinner with yana. (: i'm blessed.
read raine's blog. there isnt seem to be anyone in my mind aft all those. it's been quite a while. i'm missing tt sorta feelin to be in love n being loved. missing it. love's sth tt's no rush. smtimes u jus yearn to be in 'his' arms. i cldnt see it coming near

kinda late for happy national dae. anyhos, think this yr's choir hip-hop a lil. it's ms sylvia tt cheographed!! *heeweet* n there's this boy in there who sings n dances naturally. well it'd be nicer to be sittin there live. 12 aug wld be PM Goh Chok Tong handover to Mr Lee Hsien Long. it's been a long yrs. like the tribute segment. dozin off when the SOKA were dancin. tt's the boring part. ndp was followed by SI. 'may i have the permission to move arnd?' how courteous of him. -.- tt guy christopher michael lee..? if i'm not wrong he's sam's sis's fren. yeaa, he's got tt looks. (: the judges are somewht like simon. dick lee..tryin to be. hate tt look of ken lim. cunning look tt scares pple away. awaitin for nxt week's episode of SI. (:

hooorays. got my sim card done. now the thing is the phone. *whines-i want my phone...* pouts. anws, went to glo's church [JSM] for their 40th anniversary. enjoyed the sermon the most.. thou i was gettin drowsy by then. tryin to keep myself awake then. rev dr ng eng kee sayin bout many a times we're unthankful n ungrateful of the things arnd us. even some small lil things. tt strucks my mind. first time hearin a church choir singin' "hallelujah!" man werent they gd and also first time i've actually been to a church where they've got pewter. (: well the churches i've been are all like auditorium. *glo! jonathan's handsome. geess.. -shut up gloria!- tt's my view aights. who ask u noisy mouse. tt's why pple always disturb ya.* lols. yepps aft tt went ta town to settle my sim card thingy. n su came running in starhub. at first glance i tot who's tt girl come runnin n smiling at me.. closer look she's mua gf!! hahas. tt girl was grinnin n huggin me. love her tonnes. waited for my no. to appear. the counter i went to was this handsome guy who looked darn familiar.. so 3 of us xchanged glances tt he looks familiar. silly gloria shouted fish n co.! he looked up. how embarrassin it is! but awww he's cute. alson...*grins ear ta ear* went to eat aft.. heeren n got my slips! woohoos. su got her jay chou cd.. tt girl still supports originality yeaa. aft went to get perfume!.. glo went to get her tops. but cp dint manage to get anything.. lols. silly girl. like this top but not gettin it. am meetin her tmr for the fireworks festival (: yupps, prolly meet diana n glo there. but i've got no idea where isit. some pple said it's near esplanade.. but it's written as marina bay for its venue. hongwei's teachin xian liang how to do circuit tmr.. early in the morning! wld prolly go down. cos i dont noe how ta do.. finish it fast n of cos do a good job outta it.. i wldnt have to go the practical anymore mans! m missing my brudderss. they're gnna have traing tmr at kallang. time clashes wit the time i'm meetin the guys to do the sems. proj. -pouts
if todae wld nv end. the time spent wld go on foreva. but a dae has only 24hrs

i lost my hp... most prolly a blanga took it. from the way he sounded. dint even said hello or whteva. cont. with his blanga conversation. all the contacts in there! ooo. fool like me. being so careless. dad aint gnna spend 300 over to get me a new phone. =\ so am lookin for 2nd phones. sianss. goin ta amk central tmr to check out the quote of the second hand phone. if it's cheaper than wht i found presently. -pouttie. so currently am uncontactable. *outta the world*
diana's comin todae!!! but it's in the night time. (: lookin fwd to see her on sundae.. prolly meet at marina.. da fireworks! goin glo's church ltr for her church anniversary. yupps... sick like a dog. the med are makin me slpy thru out the dae. jay chou songs are sooo nice. mmms, nth much to sae. wht done is done. i've lost my hp.it's my fault. tt's final. damnit! outta here.

day was good n bad. was kinda moody *damnit* anyhos, met glo for lunch n i decided to go to the pool to chill. spotted cp right there. hahas. tt girl's burnt! omg.. she's like a china doll now. traing was shit. forgotten to bring my swim-cap n i ended up not able to breath n drinking water. irritatin fringe. did squats, sit-ups, push-ups, starjump. damnnns. went ta meet cp n blink for the longwait spideyy. before goin in saw mr teo walkin past. gawdd! i'm so glad mans. but he's sorta growin rounder in the middle ?_? hahas. spiderman rawksss my bloody damn socks. sucha swt movie. n the two girls were damn spastic n noisy. went watsons aft the show to get some stuff. i saw derek! awww, in a dae i sae like 2 pple.. 2! *faints* gees. kinda first time tt i chatted wit him. blehs he's no longer tt airy yays. went pasta mania aft n i wet my shorts. fuckit. made a fool of myself.. wht was i thinkin then?! spiderman. damnn viivan ure dumb. whteva.. i'm tired out. gnna watch new york minute. nxt movie i wanna catch is The village and alien vs predators. *grins*

smtimes i do think i'm a selfish. some stuff's bothering me. day in sch was slpish. was pissed doin the circuit cos i'm doin it wit a china girl whom noe nuts bout it too. like hello, how do u expect me to do. she's speaks chinese too. worse. lectures were plain bored. was jus copyin down notes tryin to follow up. maths as usual, blur.differentiation suckks. guess i carried the stress look arnd the whole dae. denis taught me drawin of the circuit for the sems. proj aft sch.. using up his waitin time for his basic theory. kinda get 80% done. but am usin too many wires. pouts pouts pouts. am gnna bath n hit e books. the guys are clubbin on sat..*move ya body girl~* tired..have ta slp early today. days like these cant go on.

You don't miss your water 'til the well runs dry
But I believe so strongly in you and I
Can somebody answer me the question why
You don't miss your water til the well runs dry

it sets me thinking. suddenly on the low mode. smack right in my mind n set me thinking. am sinking low now. buryin it won't help, being with friends is only an escape. there must be a reason behind it. but what? no matter how hard i'm thinkin back i dont see anything 'bout it? neither do i want to go further questioning bout it.
am suppose to slp early.. but am still up. sleepin almost arnd 2 or 3am these days. causing pimple outbreak. am doin sth for some idiot. -suchaanarse- daryl called me aft traing and tried to be funny.. come talkin to me in hokkien n craps. unrecognisable number too. nuts.
why isit tt pple are sayin year ones are damn slack n stuff? swimmin seniors were sayin yr 1 is darn slack and engg is slacker? he was sayin if yr 1 and we're sayin it's stress.. we'd die in yr 2 *gawdd* had lotsa fun in traing and aft. (: gnna bed pretty soon. gnna read up on math stuff for ltr's lect n another mod. i'm still havin the feel i'm in the water swimming. toodles off i go to finish up my stuff.

wheee got my mp3. journey to funan it's sooo damn long from my place, it's nearly an hour? 'glided' thru funan cos i noe where's the place n all. from the time i'm back from funan till now i've yet to touch my books. got bout 3-4 tutorials to finish. aint compulsory but yapmc's goin thru durin lect tmrs. so it's better to do it. yupp. wht's with the weather?.. the winter season's here? and everyone's fallin ill. dad's the first and am crossin fingers that i wont fall ill. wonder how's the fireworks thingy.. ohhh if there's more than 24 hrs on a sundae. off i go ta bathe..feel like slippin off to bed mans.
outs!

dint go to da reggae party. the guys were at sentosa. guess they were too bzy ewit emselves. dint join the whole lot of em. there'd be fireworks at marina ltr. last till 15 aug? but the fireworks todae is cheographed by some american. gnna be nice. prolly get some classmates down nxt week. bring the foreign classmates down. if time permits of cos. by then i guess not? cos the week aft.. it's week 6. common test week. deadmeat. thousand and one thing running thru my mind. tonnes. off i go ta bed.